So Many Weddins'

I cannot believe how many weddings there are in the world!

The weird thing is that most of them seem to be with my friends!  Ah! I feel so grown up now. My friends are getting married and having children. Where did my childhood go again? I want to go back to those days for a whole year. I want to experience all four seasons in Wisconsin again, NO WORRIES! 

My parents were the best and I just hope that I can help my kids to have a childhood that they will cherish. CHEESY! But so true. aww...life...shucks!

My Sister Would Know

(stream of consciousness)

Secret keeper

My head is full

No time for sun or rain or wind 

I want to tell you my secrets

I cannot do that to this one

Not this time

wait wait WAIT!! 

I want to, but this deserves more than a dreamy declare

Pearls to the swine

and those pearls are made of plastic

My sister, where are you when I need you?

LA.... Cesspool or Fruitopia?

(who remembers Fruitopia drinks? are they still around?)

Anyway...

I live in Los Angeles.... America's Armpit. Recently, I am found without an automobile. I am forced to take...dun dun duuun.... public transportation!! On this bus of mine you will see, hear, and smell a lot of unpleasant things. But, there are so many wonderful things about this city too. This morning on the westbound 704, I really fell in love with my city. It started to rain, then pour. I didn't prepare with an umbrella because, I live in.... LA. The sound of the rain on the windows was beautiful. My stop was approaching. I packed my electronics and zipped up my Samsonite, off I was to another day of project managing. I crossed the street, all the while trying NOT to soak my jean bottoms (my pet peeve number 2). The rain felt so good. I didn't really mind it. I stood at the corner waiting for the walk sign, and a man offered me his umbrella. He was an older gent, in his 50's. I gladly accepted, even though I didn't need it. He held the umbrella over my head as we walked across the intersection. I thought to myself... "Even in this mean city, nice things can happen."   

God is EVERYWHERE I go! I cannot escape His love, nor would I want to. I am so thankful for my life here in LA. If God commissions me to another place, off I go! For now, He has me here. Home Sweet Armpit.

money/video/book/coffee/freedom

money - I don't want to care about money ever. I need it, so I guess I have to figure out how to use it.

video - Sydney + Aaron + good tune + Saturday = one of my loves.

book - I need to finish Ministry in the Image of God. tonight! 

coffee - I woke up, smelled coffee that Marisa had made, shared some with her, put it in my red mug, left the house to jump on the bus and think about my future life. 

freedom - I dislike the thought of dating right now. I am going to stay in my own little head and enjoy this feeling of being single and free. make art, it helps. pray to Jesus, it helps more. He will awaken love when the time is right.

anxious, so silly and anxious.

I want to start memorizing Bible verses on a regular basis....so this is my first one (or section):

Luke 12: 22-34

one day...

onedayisawawomanthatwascryinginsidehermouthandwouldnotshowtheworld

onedaythesunfellfromtheskyandisawithappenhowdidilivetotellyouthisstory

onedayzebrascarriedpursesmadeofhumanskin

onedayifellinlovewithamanonthatsamedaythatmanfellinlovewithhimself

onedayithrewalineandhookintoaholesodeepandwhenirolledherupagainafishcommittedsuicidetherewasnoworm